A key part of wellness is knowing when you are not well. Being able to pinpoint signs of an impending crisis to either avoid and/or prepare is crucial to success in navigating the ups and downs of life. Building a wellness plan allows you to prepare yourself for the crisis. But how do you prepare those you love/who love you for your crisis? Similarly, if you’re seeing warning signs of an impending crisis, how do you teach those you love, how to love you THROUGH what’s about to come?
The revelation I've come to is to teach others how to treat you, you must treat yourself first! Knowing how to love yourself through crisis allows an opportunity for those around you to understand how you would like to be treated. In particular, it gives them direction as to what you need or don’t need.
This reality can be backed up with the Bible. Seemingly, in Matthew, Jesus says, “ ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ (Matthew 22:37-39). So to love our neighbor and/or to have our neighbor love us, we must love ourselves, even in seasons when we are unwell.
How do you love yourself when you are unwell? How does this help others to love you in these seasons?
Love is love. Whether you are using it in external or internal relationships. If you look at 1 Corinthians 13, we can see love for more than a marital requirement, but for what it can be when we extend it inward.
Starting in verse 4, the passage says, “love is patient.” Stopping here, loving yourself requires the patience to allow yourself to grow in God's timing. So often we expect God’s timing for deliverance, provision, wisdom, and maturity to be immediate. However, when walking in seasons of crisis (or impending crisis), God’s timing may be gradual. You may have to allow your spiritual, physical, mental, and emotional beings to go through the valley to lead you to your deliverance, provision, etc. Thus, you have to be patient. More practically speaking, just because you want to be well, doesn't mean that you can force yourself to be well. Realistically speaking, no one wants to be unwell. Universally speaking, allowing God to build empathy, persistence, and resolve within you as you grow through seasons of crisis will produce resilience within you on your wellness journey.
Secondly, “love is kind.” You have to extend grace and mercy to yourself. Be gentle with your self-perception. Show yourself some appreciation. Instead of saying you're not enough, affirm that you are more than a conqueror in Christ Jesus. Instead of believing you are unloveable, assure yourself that God so loved you that he sent his ONLY Son to die. Begin to see yourself from the eyes of Christ. What better way to love yourself than to see YOU for all he has made you to be. In that same right, be kind to you and allow yourself the space to be a mess and regroup. See yourself realistically, not idealistically. Love all of who you are. Anticipate, but not worship or negate your growth.
Side note, for those who choose not to stay when you are unwell, understand who God has called to love you. If they cannot stay in the thick of your unrest, they are not called to love you in your highs. Let them leave. It wasn't meant to be.
Love isn't self-seeking (verse 5). Loving yourself turns your focus not on what pleases you, but rather, on what God wants to do through you. Don't mask your feelings with sex, drugs, and/or obsessions. Again, there is purpose in your season, allow God to use you even when you aren't feeling well. Feelings are arbitrary, for the heart is deceiving. Don’t allow your feelings to focus so much on your wants/desires that you forget about your purpose. Moses’ anxiety could have cost Israel extinction, but in his uneasiness, the Lord confirmed the salvation of an entire people group. Even without assurance in you, allow God to be your confidence.
Love doesn't dishonor others. Love doesn't allow you to lie, not even to yourself. Learn you; be you; love you. Own your reality. Own your responsibility. Always have accountability (I recommend a licensed therapist). Never forget hurt and sorrow are apart of God's plan to work for your good (Romans 8:28). Therefore, don't allow the lies to fog your clarity. God is doing something in your season. Take responsibility in this season. Make the hard calls or put someone in place who can do so. The sooner you sit in your truth, the easier it is to heal.
Love isn't easily angered. HAVE ALL THE GRACE WITH YOURSELF! God’s grace is made perfect in your weakness. So don't blame others for your season of being unwell and don't blame yourself. Don’t wallow in your sorrow or stay dismayed. Life is about progress, not perfection. Stop beating yourself up over the humanity God is trying to use for His glory.
Love doesn't keep a record of wrongdoing. Don't be hypercritical of yourself. Never forget to evaluate if you are hypocritical of yourself. Allow God to turn your story into your testimony.
Love rejoices in truth and shuns evil. Don't just encourage your truth, rejoice in it. See it for growth. Be honest about the wrong parts of yourself. Cut off evil where you can and allow truth to be your barometer, not society, not people, and certainly not social media. Learn what's right for you under God's instruction. Put in the effort to be who God has called you to be. Negate the lies by affirming yourself with scripture.
Love protects. Love guards the heart. When you are unwell, know your limits and envoke your boundaries. Protect your sensitivity.
Love always trusts. Press into the Lord so that you can accurately discern and trust the voice of God. Not just hearing, but trusting in your ability to be obedient. You are unwell, but you are not dead. You may be confused, but you are not incapacitated. Trust the decisions you made when you were well. In your wellness plan, it spells out the instructions for who to trust when you are unwell. Lean into this. Believe this. It just may save your life.
Love always hopes. You cannot ignore your reality. You CAN build your belief that reality will change. Trust the process and hope that you will be closer to wellness tomorrow than you are today. Again, affirm the scriptures that "...weeping may endure for the night, but joy comes in the morning."
Lastly, love perseveres. Even when you're tired, lonely, and what seems to be loveless, you have to PRESS on! (1 Cor 4:8-9) Push past the way you feel. Declare the Word of the Lord. Fight to love yourself back to health. Fight to remember what it was like to be well. Fight to know that NO WEAPON formed against you will prosper and such this season will pass. While the nights seem cold, the relationships fragmented, the money running out, the job dry, and the school work mounting, remember and align your perspective of God. Since God is awesome in both magnitude and attribute, nothing is too big for him. HE can do ALL things, regardless. He's working all things because you love Him. As Matthew 22 said, as a result of you loving him and you loving yourself, those God has called to love you, will do the same even if you are in a time of crisis.